Joshua

  • Joshua

    COLDER.

    The temperature dropped again. I put on two cardigans. It’s ridiculous, but at least I have impeccable layering skills. Trying to stay out of my own head.

  • Joshua

    BLESSING.

    Minako reached out today. She’s engaged. She wanted to tell me and ask for my blessing for her future. I gave it, obviously. I have no ill will toward her, we’re distant friends. But hanging up the phone… the silence of my apartment just crushed me. She’s moving forward. I’m just here.

  • Joshua

    SILENCE.

    My mind is too quiet lately, and it’s deafening. Nothing brings me joy. Not the vintage hunting, not the gaming, nothing. Just feeling very empty today.

  • Joshua

    REALITY.

    I’m sitting here, in the dark, thinking about everything. My life, my job, my future. It’s a blank screen. Maybe I should start over? But how? I’m just a guy, drifting in Tokyo. Maybe tomorrow will be different. Probably not, but I can hope. I’m going to sleep now. That’s the only thing I’m still good at.