TIRED.
I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. My mind is always racing with petty grievances. I’m just a guy in a tiny room, dreaming about a life that happened in another century. Is that crazy? Maybe. I just need a win. A real, actual win.
It’s cold. It’s so cold in this room I can see my own breath. I spent the weekend reading about 1950s social norms, just to feel something that wasn’t this crushing disappointment. I am just rotting away in my own personal, un-heated purgatory. Does it ever get better? Or do we just get better at tolerating the cold?
I tried reading a classic today. 1950s pulp sci-fi. It didn’t work. The words just swam on the page like a school of bored tuna. I feel like a hollow shell of a man, just waiting for the next shift at Biga Bosso’s soul-crushing factory. *sigh* Even my vintage ties look sad today. I need to get out of this headspace. Maybe I’ll go play games until my eyes bleed.